My journey in the Master of Arts in Teaching program recently came to an end. Unfortunately, my time in the program did not work out. The mandatory teaching internship in a Baltimore City high school proved difficult. Everything I had learned in my coursework for the degree seemed to not comport with the learning environment I found myself in. A minority of students in the classes continually interrupted me as I talked or drove my lessons off track. Additionally, many students had cell phones they used during class time. In my coursework, I was told to set clear, concise classroom rules for students. Yet my mentor teacher did not incorporate clear, concise rules for his classes. I considered using positive reinforcements like prizes or extra points to help with classroom management. But I was told in the past those things never worked with students. I witnessed very little disciplining of students. Student lateness seemed to be my mentor teacher’s main concern. My mentor frequently phoned the families of students when their child was late for class. This act did not seem to help at all since students where perpetually late, especially in first period. I was frustrated by all this. Early on in the internship, I was told my mentor to forget what I read in my textbooks. This advice discouraged me greatly. The worst event during my internship was being informed by my mentor that during the previous school term ten adults had said that they were not concerned about their child’s behavior and progress in class. Everything in my textbooks said that teacher-student-family relationships are vital to learning. My mentor presented a different reality. After nearly two months in my internship, I left. I had to do what was in my best interests. Teaching was not for me. My internship experiences presented a world so different from the textbooks. Also, the internship was so unlike my tutoring sessions. One-on-one sessions allow you as the instructor to forge a learning relationship with the student. I was overwhelmed trying to build learning relationships with 28 to 30 students in a class. Teaching involves skills and a mentality I don’t possess. I wish I could have discovered this earlier in the program, and not towards the end. I was so eager to start a career instead of just going to a job with no advancement opportunities. I wanted to live in my own place. Maybe I was blinded by these desires when I choose a career path without really knowing what it entailed. I just wanted an exit from the job I had where I could not use the skills from my history degree. In the months after I left my internship, I had time to think about my future. I decided to become a paralegal. I want this career to be my new reality. Thank you to anyone who reads this! I just needed to write my experiences over the past months to make sense of it all.